I have spent years feeling guilty for this, but here it is. I want to do what I want, when and how I want to do it. I want to be creative and make cool shit that people love. I want to build a thing that only I can build. I don’t want people telling me what to do, when to do it, or how to do it. I don’t want to be forced to do projects that bore me or don’t feel meaningful. I want to be able to travel or be with my daughter when I want to. I have a ton of skills and I want to use them as I see fit, not how anyone else wants me to use them.
And….I had a very traumatizing workplace bullying situation when I was a teacher in 2011. I loved being a teacher. I felt like it was my calling and it was devastating when I was bullied and then forced to resign, despite being a great teacher. I never want to feel like I am reliant on a bureaucratic or Capitalistic system to make ends meet. I never want to feel like I can lose everything because someone else “owns” my job.
I want to own my destiny and my day to day reality.